Rough Translation - Gabriellas Song

Yeah, maybe I ought to translate it for those who can't read Swedish.

Gabriellas Song

It is now that life is mine
I have gotten a moment here on earth
And my longing has brought me here
What I missed and what I got

It is still the road I have chosen
My hope far beyond the North
Which has shown a small glimpse
Of the heaven I have never reached

I want to feel that I am alive
All the time I have got
I want to live as I like
Know that I am enough

I have never forgotten who I was
I have only let it be asleep
Maybe I had no choice
Only the will to stay here

I want to live happily because I am me
Be able to be strong and free
Watch the night go towards day
I am here and my life is just mine
And the heaven I thought existed
Will I find there, somewhere

I want to feel that I have lived my life

Gabriellas sång

Det är nu som livet är mitt
Jag har fått en stund här på jorden
Och min längtan har fört mig hit
Det jag saknat och det jag fått

Det är ändå vägen jag valt
Min förtröstan långt bortom norden
Som har visat en liten glimt
Av den himmel jag aldrig nått

Jag vill känna att jag lever
All den tid jag har
Ska jag leva som jag vill
Jag vill känna att jag lever
Veta att jag räcker till

Jag har aldrig glömt vem jag var
Jag har bara låtit det sova
Kanske hade jag inget val
Bara viljan att finnas kvar

Jag vill leva lycklig för att jag är jag
Kunna vara stark och fri
Se hur natten går mot dag
Jag är här och mitt liv är bara mitt
Och den himmel jag trodde fanns
Ska jag hitta där nånstans

Jag vill känna att jag levt mitt liv

Gabriellas sång by Helen Sjöholm

Meme

What time is it
00:50.

What are you most afraid of?
Losing family members, that I will never get a job, that I am not going to lose the weight put on

What is the most recent movie that you have seen in a Theater
Christ. No, that was not the most recent film....eh. I think it was the Narnia one?

Place of birth
Halland

Favorite food
Pizza.

What's your natural hair color
Medium blonde

Ever been to Alaska
Noo.

Ever been toilet paper rolling
Noo.

Love someone so much it made you cry
Hell yes.

Been in a car accident
Dinged the car? Yes. In an accident with another car? No.

Croutons or bacon bits
Croutons

Favorite day of the week
Saturday

Favorite restaurant
Don't have one?

Favorite Flower
Sunflowers, anemones, gerbera

Favorite sport to watch
Showjumping

Favorite drink
Red wine? Or Coke. Even though I am not allowed to drink it any more.

Favorite ice cream
Plain vanilla from Sia Glass in Falkenberg!

Disney or Warner Brothers
Disney

Ever been on a ship
Ferries, yes. And small sailing boats.

What color is your bedroom carpet
Don't have a carpet in my bedroom - it's hardwood floor?

How many times did you fail your driver's test
None!

Before this one, from whom did you get your last e-mail
Eh. From someone wanting to buy school books from me?

What do you do when you are bored
Read.

Bedtime
Laaate.

Who will respond to this meme the quickest
Bah. Who reads my blog?

Who is the person least likely to respond
See above answer.

Who is the person that you are most curious to see their responses
See above answer, again. And because I am not reading enough blogs myself.

Favorite TV show
Pushing Daisies, CSI, Xena...and the list goes on.

Last person you went to dinner with
My parents.

What is your favorite vacation spot?
Considering that I haven't had a vacation in years...anything warm works for me.

What are your favorite colors
Blue!

How many tattoos do you have
None.

How many pets do you have
A cat and a dog. And yes, I do consider them mine cause it's me they go to.

Which came first, the chicken or the egg
Um. The...cell?

What do you want to do before you die?
Now that is a long list. Not to be posted here, cause the blog will die.

Have you ever been to Hawaii
Nope.

Have you been to countries outside the U.S.
LOL. Yes, I live in one. Apart from Sweden - UK, Norway, Denmark, Germany, Spain, Tunisia.

Type the first word that comes to mind.
Innocent

Ignore the Cursing...

....please ignore the cursing right now, I am right in the middle of writing tutorials. And it is the most infuriating thing that you can do, I swear. Whatever possessed me to think that I could write a whole program for avatar design? Yeah, that would be the small voice in my head going on, but really, it is a pain in the ass to write tutorials.

To have to really think about how you do things, and make sure to take screenshots, and did I skip a step there, is this even understandable and did I really get that screen shot? I did, yes, but then I have to make another one, cause the screen shot doesn't show all of it now that I have cut it down, and damn, can you see it now that I have resized it, too?

Yes, you can very well imagine how things are going in my mind at the moment.

Other than that, there is a new week coming up, and I am feeling slightly nervous about Tuesday, Internet. On Tuesday, I am going to Stockholm for a job interview, and honestly, I really want the job. Really, really. The position is called something along the lines of Release Manager, but looking over the tasks - it is more of a project assistant thing. At an international fashion company, did I mention that? Guess what I associated it to? Ohyeah, the Devil Wears Prada. My god, if I end up like that, Internet, you won't see me for half a year or so. So I better keep writing on the damned tutorials, so I can at least get ...half...of them ready?

What am I sitting here for? I should be making more lessons/tutorials/work on the tutor program.

I've been tagged...

Ok, I was tagged by Rachel, but seeing as how she tagged all the people I know, I am not tagging anyone else.

7 random or weird facts about me:

1. I am a frozen kind of person. I can freeze when it is 25 degrees Celsius outside, and I definitely do it now when it is around 1 - 2 degrees outside. Brr.

2. I own too many books. Now, that is not something you would have expected to hear from me, but after lugging the damned boxes around, I have definitely come to the conclusion that I own too many books. Not that I would throw any away, though. Oh no!

3. I believe in....a lot of things, come to think of it. I do believe in karma, I do believe in a female and male aspect of the Power Above. Eh. Let's just call me a pagan, without any real practice done.

4. I have been living out of boxes since...April last year. Do you know how utterly depressing it is to not even have your clothes unpacked? Very depressing.

5. My name is mentioned in the dedication of a printed, well-selling book. Livets Källa by Saga Borg. (I won a naming contest on that author(s) website, and got a signed copy of one of their books, but as I found out when I bought this one - My name is in it!

6. I hate writing tutorials. I have been doing that for the last couple of days, and it is very annoying to have to think so much, be so specific and careful and - ohyeah. I am writing tutorials for a tutor program in graphic design. Perhaps should have said that.

7. I am in a relationship with a man I met on the Net, and still haven't met outside of it. This year...it will be four years.

Writing woes

You know, it can be so hard to write everyday - or so I have found out. It's all fine and dandy when you actually come up with something, but those days when your head is standing still and you ain't doing anything...those days are hell. Those days, I sit down and force myself to write for five minutes, at least. About a random subject. Whatever is drifting through my mind. Those bits turn out to be some sort of diary pieces, but hey, at least I wrote something that day, and that was all that mattered to me. But well.

I am thinking about what Julia Cameron wrote in The Artist's Way: Progress, not perfection. And that is about how we can sum up my writing at the moment. Progress. Hey, I am at least writing.

Month Meme

Wasn't tagged with this, just thought it was fun. Hehe. And I am not tagging either...oh well!

1. Mention the person who tagged you and create a link back to them.
2. Copy-paste the traits for all the twelve months (see below).
3. Pick your month of birth (see below).
4. Highlight the traits that apply to you.
5. Tag 12 people and let them know by visiting their blogs and leaving a comment for them.
6. Let the person who tagged you know when you’ve done it!


- Active and dynamic. Depends on how you interpret it. I am not a very active person, physically (regretfully), but my mind is. VERY much so.
- Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Decisive, yes. Once I make up my mind, I have made up my mind, and so on. Tends to regret on the other hand...well, not too sure, but oh well.
- Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Wha...? Just to myself? Now that sounds odd. I am not that egocentric!
- Strong mentality. Strong mentality, you betcha.
- Loves attention. Well, who doesn't, now and then? Not constantly, though.
- Diplomatic. I am the born diplomat. Honestly!
- Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Or at least I try.
- Brave and fearless. Bwahaha. No, fearless, I am not.
- Adventurous. Not...all that much, no.
- Loving and caring. Loving and caring, yup.
- Suave and generous. Don't know about suave, but I would like to think I am generous.
- Emotional. Heh. Ohyeah!
- Aggressive. Not...so much. Sometimes.
- Hasty. When I have made up my mind, I have...and it can be done in a second. And on the other hand, tougher questions, I tend to mill over and over again.
- Good memory. Somewhat!
- Moving. What does this mean? That I move other people? Naah.
- Motivates oneself and others. Would like to think so?
- Sickness usually of the head and chest. Eh. No?
- Sexy in a way that only their lover can see. What? No...don't think so. More like I am private about that sexiness rather than letting everyone know!


All Months:

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

New Year's Resolutions

...is a rather grand way of starting off the new year, but well, I have to make it official somehow, somewhere - so I might actually have to follow these resolutions, no? I don't think I have actually ever made a resolution, either. Mainly because I rather think that it is ridiculous to think that a promise made in the beginning of the year would be more...than one made a little later. Or maybe it is the whole hysteria around new year's resolutions. Either way, I have made two.

#1 I will try to write everyday.
I want to write, I need to write, I love to write. But it gets pushed back, and that way, I will never get anywhere with my writing, either. So I need to write everyday - no set limit, but try to make it at least five mins everyday. At least!

#2 I will try to be healthier.
Which means I should walk every day, lose weight, and probably get to bed a lot more earlier than I do. Well, the last one is gonna fail miserably, but I am going to lose weight, and walk everyday. I am, I am, I am.

So, Internet, there you have it. My resolutions for the new year, and lo and behold, I am already being a good girl and working on the first one. Yay me!